I was crushed. I was embarrassed and for the smallest moment, I felt very alone.
I didn’t understand this at first, but as time passed, I grew in my relationship with Him. Papa helped me learn what it means to lean on Him.
“Cursed is the strong one who depends on mere humans, Who thinks he can make it on muscle alone and sets God aside as dead weight. He’s like a tumbleweed on the prairie, out of touch with the good earth. He lives rootless and aimless in a land where nothing grows.
Did your spirit hear what this verse is saying? When you lean on and listen to man, leaving God out of the equation, you are cursed, like a dying tree. Loss of identity, confusion, being blown from one belief to another, depression, wrong advice with trouble and loss, loneliness, heartache, anger to name a few and you can take it from here…
In my situation, I was raised to look to my family for my every need, every decision, including my direction from God. This is not how it’s supposed to be though, right? There is no third party in our relationship with Him. It’s Him and me! So… Papa began to woo me towards Him. It was a new concept, to walk by faith, to hear His voice (to learn to hear His voice, I should say)I had no idea what to do and found it extremely difficult to grasp the concept.
When I look back on days like that one, were moments are crushing, I can see Papa’s fingerprints planting and watering the seeds of life within me. As relationships came and left, as they always do, my relationship in the Lord has kept me unwavering and secure. For those who have abandoned me, left my life or just drifted off, I’ve been able to bear the loss in a healthy way.
And if that is not enough, this also gives the other person a power to control us, to make us miserable with their mind games.
7-8“But blessed is the man who trusts me, God, the woman who sticks with God. They’re like trees replanted in Eden, putting down roots near the rivers— Never a worry through the hottest of summers, never dropping a leaf, Serene and calm through droughts, bearing fresh fruit every season.
9-10“The heart is hopelessly dark and deceitful, a puzzle that no one can figure out. But I, God, search the heart and examine the mind. I get to the heart of the human. I get to the root of things. I treat them as they really are, not as they pretend to be.”
Man is frail and God says so! He also say’s that a mans heart is deceitful. This doesn’t necessarily mean wicked deceitful, but many times our actions are driven by our damaged past. How can we help and guide others in this condition without the help of the Holy Spirit?
It just isn’t possible for man to meet our deepest needs. Not even in marriage. This does not mean that having a relationship isn’t fulfilling or that it doesn’t bring joy. It certainly can! What it does mean is that if our identity is in Christ, if we seek Him first before all else, then what the relationship gives us is an added bonus. It allows us to live freely in that relationship, without unhealthy expectations.