Moments That Change Your Life


Veronica Schultz

Moments that change your life don’t happen all the time and maybe that’s why they are so profound.

It started out as an evening like any other. The day had been long, but productive. I got ready for bed and settled in, hoping for sleep. With insomnia, one never knows if sleep will come. It wasn’t even a thought, really… to feel the side of my breast. But when I did, I froze for a full moment. Then processed what my hand just rolled over. I began a breast exam using both hands. I moved my hands gently but with intent to determine size and movability. It is the size of half a lemon. Shock hit me. My mind whirled as I tried to remember what I knew about cancer, if cancerous lumps hurt, would they be movable? But I couldn’t remember. I wanted to wake  my husband, Eric up and ask for his opinion, but I couldn’t bring myself to do that when he has been so tired. Plus, I thought, nothing would change before the morning. At lease nothing physical. One hour rolled into another as I tossed and turned… waiting for morning to break.

Eric was wonderful and very sensitive to the situation. He did what he could to offer his opinion and comfort me. As we agreed, I made a Dr.’s appointment for later in the afternoon. My Doctor, wonderful as he is, let me know that based on the size and location of the lump, he thinks it’s just a cyst or a fatty Lipoma. I said to my Dr., “I had a mammogram, a breast exam and a pap just 3 months ago, based on the size of this, how did the Dr. miss it? “After the mammogram and ultra sound I’m scheduling you for, we will know more information”, he replied.

It’s interesting the feelings and emotions I’ve experienced the last couple of days. Oddly enough, I had a sense of peace about this whole situation; otherwise I couldn’t be sure I would’ve kept the calm approach that I did. Yesterday however, I couldn’t stop thinking about it. I thought about the worse scenario as well as the best one. Fear tormented me at the edge of the fence, as though there was an invisible line it couldn’t cross. By evening I told Eric in a quiet moment together, that I wanted to feel sorry for myself for a good part of the day. Did I dare allow myself to feel pathetic? I couldn’t! Really, how unreasonable is it to struggle with varying emotions with something as huge as this, a breast lump – the size of half a lemon. Did I mention that already? It amazes me how big it is. As I stood in front of the mirror today, I noticed it protruding, making my breast look awkward.

I keep reminding myself to be aware of my thoughts and emotions, so they don’t get away from me. How easy would it be to become depressed over this! I’m grateful for my family and their loving support and grateful for my relationship with my Heavenly Father.

I look forward to finding out what they discover and of course, I will let you know how it goes and keep you posted as I journey through this trial.

With all my love,

Veronica

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About Ostara Schultz

Stephen & Ostara Schultz are a Mother/Son duo who are modern medicine healers known as the ‘Spiritual Chefs’. use kitchen analogies to teach how to become their own spiritual Five Star Chef, learning new transformational dishes to release Stale, Icy, old recipes of blocks, resistance and emotional triggers. They teach how to remodel the space they create from and cook up special and delightful life-banquets they’d like to experience and enjoy. They’ve ridden through their own Dark Night of the Soul when they experienced family disowning them, foreclosures, car accidents, near death experiences, drugs and the Complete Dissolution of Life as they knew it… as with any Initiation, this experience just prepared them to now support You… To walk through fire alongside you, to work through any issue or challenge by shamanically unwinding the brambles of spiritual and physical trauma and unlocking the Practical Solutions that have been hidden from You. They now live in the San Joaquin Valley with Eric, Stephen’s dad who is also Ostara’s husband on Life Purpose and puppies. Together they are helping people to create a signature sovereign lifestyle budding with abundance in love, spiritual gifts, money and all the self’s i.e. self-confidence, self-assurance, self-love to name a few. They inspire other heart centered entrepreneurs to align their businesses to a new paradigm of 5D consciousness. Ostara and Eric has a healthy sovereign daughter Lauren, who is happily married to Kyle, whom is absolutely adored by the Schultz’s, two grandchildren with one on the way, they are truly blessed. Reach out to them, they’d love to meet you. www.spiritualchefs.com hello@spiritualchefs.com Stockton Ca, USA Email: hello@spiritualchefs.com Facebook Ostara Facebook Stephen Facebook: The Spiritual Chefs
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2 Responses to Moments That Change Your Life

  1. Dear Veronica,
    I am very sorry to hear about this circumstance for you.Although I and you also recognize that our Heavenly Father never let’s one thing to come into our lives without His ok…now that sure is easy for me to say…I havent found any lumps lately.
    I believe this will all be a benign cyst…but it is another time of testing.Do we fall apart…or do we confess that He is an awesome loving God who has good thought’s towards us…to do us no harm for we are His forever.I pray that you remain in the peace of the Lord that passes all understanding,that you face this “thing”with the strength that has been enabling you all your days.You will have many praying for you,what could be more wonderful than that?Only facing Jesus at His coming for us in the clouds…it is a privelege for us member’s of this royal household to pray and lift you up….we are here for you always..God is blessing you and your’s.
    Jeannette Webber

  2. susiemm413 says:

    Veronica, we have only met online & only recently however, I know you are my sister & my heart felt every word you just posted. ❤ I've stood in your slippers. Mine was marble size & was discovered by my Dr during normal well-woman exam. Then waiting… mamo apt then for results. 2 Weeks later because of a mix-up we got them & ended up being only 'calcifacations. My moment was followed by the memory of an earlier moment when } was told I had 'abnormal-pre-cancerous cells' after a pap. That too ended up being followed by a normal pap after cryo-surgery & many weeks of fear at my fense. (Gotta say how I love how accuate that image is…you have a gift Darlin')

    I prayed for you & your husband. Now for your family. Please know I am here for you. You can send personal prayer requests by private message to my facebook pg. If you'd like my email or cell # for texting, I can send it to you too. I've been in many Dr. Waiting rooms & they can be situated very close to the fense.

    Be Encouraged.
    Love Ya! Susie 🙂
    < "I can do all things thru Christ who strengthens me." Philippians 4:13
    Facebook ~ Susie Sattler Cantrell

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