Finding the Beauty in the Beast – My testimony


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“My own Beauty and the Beast Tale” My family and I recently saw “Beastly”. A modern day story of a favorite classic, “Beauty and the Beast”. I loved it and recommend it if you like a modern twist on a “fairytale”. After watching the movie, it inspired me to write about the beast within me which transformed into Beauty. As the Beast, I was mean and cruel – prideful, I was an abuser! It’s all I’ve ever known, so it’s what I emulated. Then God stepped into my situation, life began to change and rearrange itself, spiraling me into learning, healing and becoming the Beauty. He was not willing that I stay as I was… but He began to change me from glory to glory.

Before my healing had taken place, I had a very broken spirit. My self-esteem had been shattered by the years of abuse leaving me to feel an awful amount of shame. I felt so bad about myself, that I couldn’t bear acknowledging error on my part, and without being able to look at the errors within one’s self, there is no change, no healing. Needless to say, I was not an easy person to live with.

How does one recognize they need help if all they’ve known is survival! We learn to show a false but polite face to the public and let the real “us” come out in the home, with those we love the most. Many of my memories hold no pleasure for me, as many of them are of pain and loss. I truly believe that testimonies change lives. Testimonies are real people sharing some pretty horrific things, but when we hear that one testimony that sounds like they are speaking about our life, we can relate, can’t we? So I believe in sharing real things about myself. Some of what I share tends to sound negative. It’s been suggested to write positively, leave out the negative. I believe in balancing it with both, because in truth, wounds are ugly. When we can relate to a behavior, we can say… “hey, I do that” and realize there is need for change, thus we seek help!

I used to…

  • Concentrating on what area’s others needed to fix
  • Passing blame and making excuses
  • Justifying self
  • Anger and argumentative
  • Embarrassment and shame
  • Excessive amounts of pride etc…

Now instead I…

  • Self reflect – realizing I can change no one but myself
  • Love myself – Realize I’m worthwhile and needed in the world. I am unique and there is no one who can replace me
  • Forgive myself – realize I have God’s approval and no longer need man’s, but it’s a plus when I do have it
  • Do not judge myself – realize we are all on a journey and that means we learn from mistakes
  • Take responsibility for my actions and apologize when I need to
  • Maintain a peaceful inner self – Anger has been resolved with healing and understanding
  • Humility is my posture and a true strength

 

I love being the Beauty! I don’t miss the Beast! Nope, not at all! Maybe you are not as broken as I was, but any Beast in us has the propensity to ruin something in our lives we truly love. Do not wait. Change doesn’t happen without our willingness for it. Reach for the Beauty, make it happen!

With all my love xoxo

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About Ostara Schultz

Stephen & Ostara Schultz are a Mother/Son duo who are modern medicine healers known as the ‘Spiritual Chefs’. use kitchen analogies to teach how to become their own spiritual Five Star Chef, learning new transformational dishes to release Stale, Icy, old recipes of blocks, resistance and emotional triggers. They teach how to remodel the space they create from and cook up special and delightful life-banquets they’d like to experience and enjoy. They’ve ridden through their own Dark Night of the Soul when they experienced family disowning them, foreclosures, car accidents, near death experiences, drugs and the Complete Dissolution of Life as they knew it… as with any Initiation, this experience just prepared them to now support You… To walk through fire alongside you, to work through any issue or challenge by shamanically unwinding the brambles of spiritual and physical trauma and unlocking the Practical Solutions that have been hidden from You. They now live in the San Joaquin Valley with Eric, Stephen’s dad who is also Ostara’s husband on Life Purpose and puppies. Together they are helping people to create a signature sovereign lifestyle budding with abundance in love, spiritual gifts, money and all the self’s i.e. self-confidence, self-assurance, self-love to name a few. They inspire other heart centered entrepreneurs to align their businesses to a new paradigm of 5D consciousness. Ostara and Eric has a healthy sovereign daughter Lauren, who is happily married to Kyle, whom is absolutely adored by the Schultz’s, two grandchildren with one on the way, they are truly blessed. Reach out to them, they’d love to meet you. www.spiritualchefs.com hello@spiritualchefs.com Stockton Ca, USA Email: hello@spiritualchefs.com Facebook Ostara Facebook Stephen Facebook: The Spiritual Chefs
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